Change

Its hard for me to look at you the same way
Its so hard even though things are still the same
I just know the secrets you hide.
I love you just like I have before
And for some reason as time goes by my love fades more.
It hurts me knowing my feelings may not be the same anymore
I’m torn between still wanting you and no longer holding on
I deserve better and still I want what I deserve to be shared with you
And since you block that open door I have to close it for you
I don’t want nor should I keep torturing my mind, heart, and soul
I cant continue much longer
I’m wasting in my sorrows
As much as I’m willing to do for you
You’re never willing to do the same
I love you pass my pain of loving you
I love you through your selfishness
Through your cruelness
And now I’ll just love you silently
To myself
In my mind, heart, and soul
For telling you only makes the feelings change
The love fade
The pain stay
And smiles staged
I’ve come to think you can’t handle my love
So I pray that if its Gods will you can handle it in the future
You know what they say “If someone doesn’t love you, love them anyways”
So this is goodbye for now until for the sake of us you’ll change.