Cigarettes

It’s a recurring nightmare, every night getting worse
The thoughts haunting me and tearing up everything around me 
The pills evaporating every feeling I had
Screams from you ingrained in my ears 
The hairs on my back stand straight every time I smell a cigarette
You are everywhere
I have ran, erased, cut you out 
But you always wessel your way in 
Using your snake of a mouth, you poison those around me
Spitting lies and manipulating minds
When I open my eyes there is no one left but you and I
The past bloodsheds flood back  
Your crooked mouth smells of cigarettes 
You grab me and I begin fading away 
Powerless, weak, alone 
My eyes open and I’m in a sweat 
You lay beside me, making sounds like your motorcycle
A cigarette case stationed beside you 
All though you are here, I have never felt more alone 
I look down to only see cigarette marks entrenched in my thighs