Closer

I don't really want to do it
But at times I do
It is all I think about
Every night
When I am alone
Crying in my room
All of the different ways it could happen
I feel like I am coming closer
Closer every night
I tell myself
I need to stay strong
But honestly
I am scared
Scared of everything
Please help me
Help me before
I get too close
And fall right off the edge