Complicated

Cried so many nights alone
over someone who did not bring peace in my home
swimming in a puddle of my own tears
struggling to love, wishing you were still here

Knowing you don't mean me any good
I am still in love with you anyway
this emotional connection makes me stay
wishing our love still stands even when our hair becomes gray

During the hard times, we should stay strong
until you become weak and leave me alone
all my life was to only love you
now this love is dead, a coroner's vision of blue

Nothing can repair this broken heart
I guess moving on will be the perfect start
how can I love again when my heart is broken?
looking for love, but my heart remains open.