Confession

I have a confession, this was because of depression .

I have self- Harmed that bad it put  me in hospital and trust me ,Its dose not make the pain go away . 

It makes you Ashamed that you defaced your skin , just to see if you where really numb as you watched the blood run,

made me less hurt , but when I saw  what it done to my  family and it tort me apart.

so now I don't self harm and I hide my scares , I have not self harmed in 1 year and 4 months , I am proud of how far I have come.

I realise self harming is  mental illness and there are other was to cope and get through the pain .

I am thankful back then I didn't hit my vines , I use to think it was the means to the end .  My actions destroyed my Brothers and my Mother , It made them SAD and MAD ,They told me there are other ways to deal with pain ,

With out pain what is there to gain ?

Now when I feel numb , I listen to music 

Or draw on paper and not on my skin .

I couldn't  think of a better way to make this sink in .

​SELF HARMING DOSE NOT JUST HURT YOU !

BUT THE PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT YOU TOO !

So do what i do and don't give into the urge.

you will be happier than when you have though red marks reminding you of when you lost faith in yourself .

The is a message for all self harmer's 

YOU ARE NOT ALONE !

just have faith and understand everyone makes mistakes ,

Its not to late