Cowed

I cannot stand up to others.
I cannot avoid them.
Best to be alone,
Second best is to be dead.
I cannot help narcissistically,
Glancing at you to see me.
Countless hours spent primping,
Visiting the cosmetic psychologist.
I no longer recognize my own image.
Nothing left to do but smash the mirror.
Live a life sitting Shiva or no life at all.