CRYING FOR CLOSURE

I CRY, NOT FOR THE PAIN...
NOT FOR MY CONSTANT SORROWS OF RAIN...
I CRY, FOR I AM A TARGET...
WITH NO ESCAPE OR NEGOTIABLE BARGAIN...
I CRY FOR THOSE WHO ARE HURT WITH THE NEED TO HURT OTHERS...
I CRY, FOR THE HURT COMES WITH OUR COLORS...
WHY DOES IT RELIEVE YOU TO SEE ME CRY...
MAKES YOUR HEART PROUD WHILE THE TEARS DESCEND FROM MY EYES...
I STRUGGLE TO BRING YOU JOY...
BUT MY ATTEMPTS LEAVE YOU ANNOYED...
I AM SORRY, FOR WHICH I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I AM SORRY FOR...
MAYBE ME BEING A PEDESTAL COULD NOT FILL THE VOID...
I CRY FOR YOUR EMOTIONAL RELIEF...
AND THAT ONE DAY GOD COULD BE OF YOUR BELIEFS...
WHY HAVEN'T YOU ALLOWED YOURSELF TO CRY...
TO ALLOW YOUR HURT TO ESCAPE FROM THE INSIDE...
I TRIED TO PROVIDE A SHOULDER...
AND A EAR FOR YOUR DISCLOSURE...
BUT YOU HAVE BEATEN ME WITH YOUR WORDS...
FOR WHICH YOU HAVE FELT I DESERVE...
YOU HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE FOR YOUR PAIN...
THE DECIET AND MANIPULATION YOU HAD SUSTAINED...
I SHALL CRY, FOR I FORGIVE YOU...
AND BECAME ENLIGHTEN TO ALL YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH...
I WILL NOT CRY IN THE NAME OF YOUR PAIN...
I WOULD RATHER CRY FOR YOUR WILLINGNESS TO CHANGE...
I AM CRYING FOR CLOSURE...