DADDY

Just so young so timid and carefree
not understanding why this happened to me
My daddy left never to return
Somewhere in my heart is fire I felt it burn
What did I do
why did my daddy leave
No phone calls on my birthday
no presents on Christmas eve
He just left storming full throttle
Just him his car and half empty liquor bottle
I remember crying for days 
Even though mom disagreed on my ways
I didn't understand so young
so small
Every time the phone rang I knew it was daddy making the call
No
not him today or next week
I shut myself from the world I didn't speak I couldn't sleep
I prayed n cried every night just to have my dad
after all why couldn't I have what all the other kids had
So years later he finally comes around
My lips smiled but my heart always had a frown
As I grew older I learned God answered that Prayer
I got my daddy now Mabey he does really care
he has a new wife but I should've known
I taught myself to be the bigger person as I became grown
Now my father's sick and he can no longer walk
N I'm no longer waiting on the phone call so we can talk
Even though he left me when I couldn't feed myself
Being strong for all of us felt better then wealth
its not in my character this old woman's body with this little girl trapped inside to leave his side
So to this day I love him and swallow my pride
I have trust issues that effect me everyday
but this little girl got her daddy back that's all that I can say....Rebecca