Daddy don't go

It was Easter the first time we weren't together. No matter how much I begged and pleaded you would not go. You said you had to think things over the last words I ever heard you say. When we returned the house was cold the cat was going crazy. I thought you were somebody else for the Dad I knew would not have taken his own life. I swore the man in our basement was someone else it could not be you I told myself but seeing you lying there in your casket I knew I lost you. My heart broke and shattered with sorrow. Images of you walking me down the isle slowly blurred through tears. The things I would have said to you burned through me it hurt to think maybe you didn't know just how much I love you. I would have said I need you here instead I told you I'd stay with you. Instead of saying good bye Daddy I love you I would have said I will see you soon. I thought I would never lose you so Daddy don't go. Daddy don't do what you've done. Erase the pain, the soundless tears. Erase what was and be here. Forget the times I upset you let me know it's not my fault. Help me to see why you've done what you've done. What caused you to feel so much pain to think that this was an answer. I'm not angry with you Oh, how could I ever be. I'm angry at me for not seeing the hurt between the smiles, the tears through the laughter and the frowns through your excitement. Daddy don't go I need you. Daddy don't go I love you. Daddy don't go while I'm still here.