Darkness

As I feel my foundation moving the cracks started to open, and the darkness starts to creep slowly back in. My walls feel like they are closing in around me, I needed to break free to escape to run away. But I am finally settled.
I find myself frantically working hard to fill, fix, to mend the cracks I find around me in. Trying desperately to shut out the darkness once again. To only have the light surrounding me.
The darkness scares me! But apart off me is drawn to its appeal. The nothingness, the endless peaceful quiet and restful slumber, that comes from the never ending darkness. I am struggling to fix mean or to fill the cracks. More keep opening up. I fix one and two more appear, will this ever end? I know how?
I have to go I can’t stay I need a out. The sharpest needle will do. I don’t care let the cracks come in is happen before. I deserve this once more.I feel better lighter freya relaxed again. It’s only once it does count it just to help me cope and get through today. Once wont heart me.
I am slipping back in to the darkness. I can’t remember why I was scared it all good why fit it just go with it what ever happeneds happeneds I am ok with this.
There’s no more light left just a flame from my lighter that lights my trip into the cloudy skies above me. Look over there the smallest deliver off light or is not just a reflection on the silverpoint of my last weapon. So I let the darkness take me now for evermore and forever Young and free just to be.