In The Darkness

In the darkness of my mind someone screams.
Screams for help but no one but me hears.
I smile, laugh, and complain
in reality I don't feel those emotions.
When I get mad, grumpy, or sad I go to my room
and look at the wall calmly.
I have tried to cry but I am unable to get a tear out.

In the darkness of my mind someone screams.
Screams for help but no one but me hears.
My heart feels nothing nor beats a single beat.
My mind is programmed,
I can control my emotions.
Nobody notices that I fake.
Nobody knows that I hide my greatest sadness
inside me.

In the darkness of my mind someone screams.
Screams for help but no one but me hears.
My heart breaks into a million pieces.
Like a delicate crystal.
My tears do not come like the rain
in a great storm.
My emotions do not surface
like the open ocean.
Nothing is natural about me,
nothing is true about me,
nothing is what you think about me.

In the darkness of my mind someone felt in silence,
a silence that only I noticed.
A silence that no longer exists
because I closed my eyes forever.
And only then everybody notices my sadness.
Only then everyone understood my words.
Only then tears came for me.
Tears I never cried.

In the darkness of my mind I scream with sadness.
I scream but no one hears,
and I die in silence,
and wait for someone to find me.
That's the only thing I am waiting for!