Dear Father

Oh Father Dearest,

I wish you were the nearest.

So far away like a faded dream.

You left me here torn at the seams.

A broken road, a broken home,

A love I will never know.

I still have hope, one day you will change

and realize I'm more than just a name.

I'll be something you can be proud of, just like my brother you love so much.

I have your eyes and I have your smile.

These memories won't fade until a long while.

Till I find someone else who won't be ashamed, to love me for me, not just me name..

I feel that you claim me, just to look proud

But can you say you truly want me, at least aloud?

I'm of no importance, to you or anyone else.

I'm that piece of dirt in the corner of the bottom shelf.

I hope no one feels, what I've felt all my life.

I wish I could cut my heart out with a rusty knife.

No chances to live, I hope I don't make it

I'd rather die unloved than to see you fake it.

I don't know where my heart is, because I don't have a home.

I've traveled my journey in silence, all alone.

You tried guiding me, but led me the wrong way.

And you left me with a black heart and so much to say.

I shouldn't miss you, you're a waste of thought.

Like a cheap pair of shoes I wish I would've bought.

Get out of my head. 

You make me feel dead.

I'll write these stupid poems until I lay on my death bed.

I can't forgive and forget, that's just too cliche.

I will never do that, that's just not my way.

It's ok to cry and say goodbye...

I say this as salty tears fill my eye.

Only one will cry, you're not worth both.

I'm shutting all the open doors, and keeping yours closed.

It's time to build a bridge, and get over it as they say,

Because I know we won't meet again one sunny day.
                  Oh dearest Father,                       God help your soul,                  

I have to grow up now, I have to let go.                Goodbye to you, goodbye Dear Father.