dear gerrit

the night we met was a drunken whirl
but i couldn't see you dating that other girl
the look in your eyes made me want to see you again
i knew it wouldn't work while dating other men
after finding your note at my front door
i knew this was something i had to explore
i deleted phone numbers ,cancelled all dates
i was sure this feeling had to be fate
tried to proceed with caution and not move too fast
trying to avoid mistakes i made in the past
although testing not to, i fell too strong and too quick
the red flags i ignored today make me sick
if i'd known at the time the secrets you hide
there is no way in hell i'd stuck by your side
but we recited our vows on that significant day
i trusted every word never thought you would stray
i'm still hanging on after six abhorrent years
and every single day i fight back the tears
you shattered who i was, i miss her so much
i abhor the fact i have fallen out of touch
i look in the mirror and the person i see 
is a disgusting person who means nothing to me
what i need right now is proof that you love me
not worry everyday when again you may hurt me
both of us need to make better choices and forget the past
it's the only thing that will make our love last
let's get back in touch with who we once were
so that we can see each other the way we once adored.

-looking forward to the future-