Decisions

The light falls as the darkness rises and all is lost all is alone…nowhere to turn it seems  nearly impossible…the world feels empty…hollow if you will…nothing really matters but this moment…this memory…it fills your mind with constant thought…pondering…Contemplating every single move you will make…studying it like it is your last minute to live…and where do you live…home is what you think of it…or maybe just a lifeless land where even your deepest of thoughts are not safe…the walls watch you…the ceiling stares down at you in defiance...knowing that when you are at your worst times they can close in on you and bring you down to your most vulnerable levels of thoughts deeper than the depths of the ocean….than the devotion of your heart towards the insanity that consumes your soul…its stains the blood in your veins with the profanity and the logic that you will fail and won’t have the strength to press on…the only thing you can do in those hard times on this earth is keep your held to the highest point and never give in to the neglect and the hatred that is forced upon you by the demons who are only out to get you… you know you deserve more in this life than this rage and pity you have for these time…and even though my words may be unseen or unheard every letter, every word, and every phrase is all too real…I am not out to tell you that fictional unreality put upon so many people because they are desperate for a purpose…for answers on why we are even put on this earth if in the end all we did was go through hurt and hell and sadness… was there even  a reason for living… we may never know that reason but there always a reason for everything that happens to us in this world… we may question it but in all reality it is here to save us from ourselves and help us learn from our reckless and ruthless decisions we make in this lifetime…so that later on we can see the dangers of our future actions and what is yet to come…