Depression

It’s a struggle some days to get out of bed
not looking forward to the day ahead
Some days I just lay in bed engulfing pills I
don’t need
just to block out the severe pain that runs so deep
It’s even hard on days to take a shower
So emotionally drained I don’t even bother
My family begs me to come out of the hole I’m in
and interact
But my heart and soul have no energy, like
they’re ready to collapse
Most days are filled with emptiness
Looking for more but always receiving less
I crave to be a better person and to love unconditionally
But how can I do that when I care nothing for myself and
I feel so lonely
On my knee’s I pray to God everyday
asking him to please teach and show me his way
Depression is what I suffer from
I’ve had it since childhood
It’s followed me for years like little pieces of crumbs
I know if I keep asking in my prayers
God will hear me, He will free me from this slumber
Protect me from the lightning and thunder