Despair

Despair

I sit here alone and watch the people go by.
I hide my face so that they won’t see me cry.
A few kindred spirits stop and ask me why.
But, my pain is too great so I tell them a lie.

I keep this pain all bottled up inside of me.
Afraid of the unknown but longing to see.
To let go of this madness so that I can be free.
But, it’s been my friend so long that I just let it be.

A new day begins but in bed is where I want to stay.
I know it will be a struggle just to get through my day.
My friends encourage me, I just don't know what to say.
But, I will try my best and let come what may.

I’m so tired of this battle, just not ready to give up the fight.
To find a better way I will try with all my might.
To conquer this darkness so that there can be light.
But the road won’t be easy;I must keep the end in sight.

Shirley Sue Cameron
March 2017