Didn't Get To Say Goodbye

I can hear the church bells ringing
Up that small grass hill
As the doves in the sun lit night
Sit on the rooftop, still

I didn't want to head home,
After looking at your
Headstone,
But I ended up walking
All alone,

More than a single tear
Fell down my face 
Memories flowing that
I can't erase,
I didn't get to say goodbye,
On your last day

I wonder what it would be like,
If I quit doing stupid things
And living a lie,
I blame myself for that night,

I should've been there
To say own last time,
That I loved you
Because you were mine,

And now just thinking of you
Brings tears to my eyes,
I don't want to
Turn out the lights,
Because it reminds me
That I didn't get to say goodbye