die from my memory

why do you keep coming into my head ...I dont want you anywhere in my life anymore  especially there   ..go away ..let me be.. I already died  when you stopped  loving me .         on all of my happiness.... on all I was ............on all I could ever be  ..........you shut the door  to give totally to another  im sure I cant do any more ..the hurt I feel  wakes me from my  bed............. hauntingly  bad thoughts  run through  my head  some times  I really wish you were dead