Disaster Zone

I adore my mum

So I really shouldn't be writing this

But I need to vent

Yes I need to vent!

I just wish...

I just wish she could keep it together

Until I can get it together
 
Here I am in a sinking hot air balloon filled with our accumulations

Things eternal, things still needed and basket-loads of redundancies
 
But they're all tied in knotted wool that hides razor blades

And I don't know when I'm gunna get gashed next
 
Death Cert for my stepdad that OD'd

Cards from friends that didn't last the distance

Pics of better days trigger gloomy reminiscence

Documents of two failed marriages

Transcripts of failed college subjects
 
Medical records of mental ill health
 
Birth Cert of my son that was stolen away
 
Resignation acceptance letters from jobs I couldn't keep
 
Buisness endeavours that had to fold

Evidence I too am getting old
 
And it takes hours and it zaps my soul
 
And I have a life to live as well
 
The house inspection's in an hour

And God! I haven't had a shower

In the last three days?
 
I've lost count
 
I'm heading towards a rocky mount
 
Yikes! I feel there's no way out
 
And that is why I shout

And that is why I shout