Divinely Broken

I'm divinely broken.

It's hard to let go
of someone you love
to choose to let them be happy,
over choosing to try to make yourself happy.

selflessness has never been too difficult
but when one has devoted so much into something
that never was meant to happen
it destroys the intertwined inner hopes,
that had such a massive toll

I could choose to let myself be depressed.
I could choose to cry a thousand times.
I could choose to let the twist of fate consume me
Like it did once before.

But not anymore.
I'm done.
I'm broken free from all chains
that the demons have viciously wrapped,
around the core of my soul
the prince of pain may have owned me once, but he's not going to have me again.
Never is he going to own me again.
I belong to God. His power and so deeply empowering love
has never been so attractive.

Everything happens for a reason
I am divinely broken, purified.
My eyes have been opened to the goodness in man
a type of goodness that I never saw before in my life.
The goodness I couldn't see,
which caused all of my grief and sorrows
towards the idea of devoting myself to a "man"
The little girl who despised men
found her Patch Adams.
It is finished. I have learned what I had to learn.

You have tested me.
You have healed me.
You have held me when no one else was there.
You have opened my eyes
You have allowed me to see what is truth
You have allowed me to feel special to someone once more
You have granted me the ordinance of great happiness
You have showed me what it's like to love
You have given me everything.

And even though it wasn't easy, and there were struggles, I know that there was a divine purpose

You are beautiful.
You are almighty.
You are worthy.
You are so loving.
You are wise.
You are unbelievable.
You are HOLY.

And you have given me something that I now must let go.
And I understand why you let this happen.

Because of You and Your beauty,
Because You're coming to get your beautiful bride
In a matter of days...
I've realized that the one that could potentially be everything I wanted
was ultimately just a beautiful life lesson.

No other man compared to him
He was different.
But I am letting go of this now,
Because I know it is your will for things to be different
and I know and trust in your divine plans.

You are worthy.
You are Almighty.
You are Holy.

And I love everything you have done for me, and who I am in You

I am found
I am loved
I am forgiven
I am divinely broken
I am divinely purified
For once and for all.

Every chain has been undone by the power of the Son.
I am finally able to let go of everything I wanted here
everything I dreamed about to this very moment
And through every test I struggled with,
and this very test has given me so much insight...
And I thank You for that.

You're right. You really are purifying your bride
because I have never felt so detached from this world,
so eager to go Home

Take me to the middle of Your heart....
I've let go of everything.
I'm finally entirely yours.
You're truly the only one that matters to me now.
You're the only one that can love me and hold me together
Who knew I'd fall for my Savior so hard?

But...
I have to remember that you fell for me harder.
You gave your life..... you can have mine.
I have never been happier to belong to Someone like You
I love you more than anything in existence.

I'm finally purified,
I'm finally as ready as you wanted me to be

Come get me.

Karyssa S. (c) 2013