Drawing My Own Conclusions

Fatherless at birth, met him at 12 very hurt and told him “ if you didn’t want me then, then why would I want you now?

A decision a 12 year old shouldn’t be able to make, fueled from feelings a child shouldn’t ever have to feel.

Im 35 now and have started drawing my own conclusions, I'm starting to realize who I am.

My mother has 4 children and only one that talks to her, my biological father more including me and I’m the only one he doesn’t know. 

Maybe he wasn’t an absent father but rather a father that wasn’t allowed to be, maybe it was never about him or me but rather always about my mother! 

I soon will find out for myself, as an adult who is openminded and couldn’t be hurt anymore than I have already been. 
 

Don’t always trust others regardless their part in your life, no one is perfect and we all deserve to make our own conclusions for ourselves! 

In the picture attached to this poem is a photo of a whole other life that I was meant to be a part of but because of others decisions….

i was not.