Emotions

When I look at him I’m happy 
When he does not reply I’m sad 
Me knowing that I’m not his girlfriend makes me mad 
My mixed emotions confuses him about my personality 
Sometimes I wonder if I have a great mentality 
I question myself each night asking why am I so emotional 
It consists of feelings that are so uncontrollable
I just want to be normal enough to be his girl 
But my emotions just keep going around in a swirl