Every try

Every step I try and take, 
I have to stop!
I can’t carry on without my guidance,  
I have lost it. 

Every touch I try and feel,
I can’t. You are no longer by my side.
The softness of your lips agains mine
For ever will be missing that familiar taste.

Every word I try and say,
It suffocates me even more!
I can’t keep trying to speak...
When you’re not listening !

Every beat I try and feel,
Is colder and colder!
I can’t feel the hotness inside me anymore...
I have nothing left to warm me up! 
 
Every photo I try and not miss,
I cry tears after tears.
It’s not because I’m sad it’s because I realise how happy I was, 
I miss all those emotions I can see in that exact photo.  

Every move I try and make, 
It hurts me even more!
I can’t carry on trying to move... I’m broken?
I have lost all my strength.

Every smell I try and find, 
It’s impossible to find such recognisable smell! 
I can’t find it anymore other than in you...
My comfort has been stolen.

Every memory I try and re-live,
I can’t... it doesn’t feel the same. 
As time travels back in time, I’m happy
But it doesn’t last long till I fall into reality.

Every time I try and not overthink, 
I overthink even more... I realise
It feels like you have taken my heart,
With your choice. 

Every time....
I try and forget,
I try and take my mind off, 
I can’t, the emotions are stronger than me.