Expectations

I sit
Silently
In a classroom
Slowly going insane 
As the seconds tick through me
Trying too hard to look like I care
Because that's what's expected

I try 
Unsuccessfully 
To be understood 
Hiding behind sensitivity and sarcasm 
In hopes to leave my own impression 
But I always find myself 
In the shadow of another 
Because that's what's expected

I wait 
Impatiently 
For a chance to rebel 
Saving myself from normality 
And it's unknown criteria 
Yet, I conform to its standards
Nameless and choice less
Because that's what's expected 

I laugh 
Half-heartedly 
At the joke this society is 
Reaching for an explanation 
That is unobtainable 
So I settle for what's given 
For fear of asking too much 
Because that what's expected

I sit 
Silently 
In a classroom 
Pondering over the weight
Of this burdening intellect 
Until the monotoned rings
Signal unwanted migration 
To another zone of discomfort 
Another place to pretend 
That I'm less than what I am
To avoid these expectations
Another place where I again sit
Silently 
In a classroom