Explosive love

our explosive love will never explode.
For our explosive love is inextricably strong.
It's explosiveness is not bad,
But an explosion of all the love, care and attention  that we both crave.
I've told you Atanya,
I'll love u till I'm 6ft under and in my grave.
But even then forever more as I'll always love you in this life and the next and each one,
holding on to you tight as each life will seem to travel faster,
I know this,
Cos you are my forever after.
No skids and halts when im with this angel from heaven,
The way she makes me feel,
Like the old me,
The old James bevan.
The me before the last 12 years of my past,
Before i knew I had cancer,
Living life to its limits and having a blast.
When I'm with you my pain disassipates. 
It's like its not there and it's just us two floating painlessly in outer space.
I know it's there though.
It's found its home,
it's place.
But I will beat it though with the power you provide me,
The strength I draw from the love that you give,
Beats anything that all the worlds Drs ever did.
You are my light to follow to lead me away from a life of pain and sorrow,
A light thats mine to keep,
Not to briefly borrow.
As tomorrow crests after this night time sky,
There'll only be one more sleep left till u see this guy. 
so please rest,
relax and close those beautiful eyes,
 till then I'll miss you,
I'll be tearing up inside!