Failure

I knew this someone i held dearly,

I knew this someone, you couldve seen it clearly,

That what we had, was something truly special,

And i somehow severed it

And now i pay the price,

This stupid decision has cost me more than i couldve thought possible,

Im a mess,

Because i know she despises and hates me,

Ive lost the one i held most dear,

This one i kept, the one who could put me in tears,

The one who could brighten up my day,

The one whose name ide rather not say,

I live with this agony
of regret,

And it hurts...

It hurts knowing that my one too many fuck ups has cost me someone, someone i cherished more than my own pathetic life,

This someone i miss dearly,

This someone, i feel its too late to ask for  forgiveness,

And if it may come to the day you may read this, i truly am sorry, i see it now,

But for the time being, i live with this fuck up i call my life