Fear Is Speaking to me

When I was younger fear was not an option

I had dreams of doing better things,  getting out the Hood an having things

I wasn't  still suppose to be here! 

My passions were my Goals, Momma I vowed that I would take care of you before I'm old

All of My dreams have now became hobbies and wants

My mind is speaking to Me in Fear

I'm alive,  but I feel dead

It's my mind why can't I control it? 

My body is Moving but I'm standing still

"You can't do it" Fear says 

"You Never will"

I'm  trapped in a place of Fear

My mind is speaking to me

I have so many talents,  but I feel as if I'm not good enough. 

I'm not smart enough

Fear is talking to me

Momma, Have I let you down?  I feel as if I have to Hold my head down because I let you down

I'm  suppose to take care of you

I'm stuck in a place I no longer  feel comfortable

I know I can do it,  but fear  is talking too me

My talents are trapped  were no one can see 

How can they hear me when fear is speaking to me

My kids are Depending on me,  but I'm battling with fear 

It has me in  a zone where I feel better alone

"Don't speak you might mess  up"

"Stay quiet don't speak up"

My voice have now,  became silent.  My mouth moving but you can't hear me.  Fear is speaking through me. 

Fear is speaking to Me