Fears
When someone asks me what i'm scared of i play it basic and say the dark, somtimes i'll say heights, needles or even sharks, maybe i'll say spiders or flying above ground, i'll say confined spaces or pain or even loud sounds but i hide my real fears and put them on a far shelf because my real fears are worse, my one true fear is that you'll see me the way i see myself, I look in the mirror and i don't know if what i see is a true reflection of me, A morphed reality yet it couldn't be more clear, Infact the truth is my biggest fear, Maybe i can change the angle and suck in a little more, ristrict and exercise untill i collapse on the floor, because if what i see is a true reflection of me, i don't know what options are left for me.
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Welcome to cosmofunnel, great first post.
So sad...insecurities are real demons and you have expressed them well here π»
My goodness 81!!....and to come out and frankly state that you're dealing with one of the most difficult problems ~ Anorexia!!.....well that 's just brave as hell!!.......well done dear poet brother/sister?......ALL STARS!!.....and in case no one has said so......WELCOME to COSMO!!......well done!!......LOVE & ROCKETS!!......T xoΒ : )
thank you for the kind words, for me being so young its been hard to tell my story, most people tell me i dont have enough "life experince" but there wrong, with my words that are so true yet so frightening i want to make a diffrence, stay tuned for more...
Hello 81...it is never easy to face and admit such reality as this sort of suffering. Yet you have penned this so poetically perfect that you give the reader a true glimpse of what is a truly torturous experience. One that drags a person into such deep self loathing. I do hope writing helps. You wake up minds to hidden suffering with your writing. A warm welcome to CosmoΒ
Gwen xΒ
See yourself the way God sees you, a gifted work of His Art. With potential and a future that is in a book written by Him. Already finished and published, itβs your job now to just turn the pages my dear and the ending in His books is always for the Good.