Feel used

Sat hear listening to music,
The script got it right,
My hearts hurting,
And your out for the night,
Wish I could do the same,
Wish I didn't feel this pain,
Writing poems to try escape,
The reality has got me slain,
One of us is happy,
The others so low,
What can I do,
I have no where to go,
Wanted to support you,
Fair enough you've gone out,
Keep thinking if you need me,
You'll give me a shout,
But somehow it feels,
That whatever we had,
Has been thrown to the side,
That's pretty sad,
Today's been rough for you,
And I want to help,
But you've pushed me away,
With a moan and a yelp,
Bet you read these poems,
And laugh for ages,
But these are my thoughts, 
Filling the pages,
Did I mean nothing,
Was it just a game,
Either way you mean loads to me,
And now nothing feels the same,
I pray to God,
I'm over thinking it all,
Because I can barely stand,
And I don't want to stop this fall.