Finality

Finality

I did not know
I was so happy back then.
Perhaps back so long ago
I took it for granted.
Or Just no time to think.
The children, the job, the bills.

We made love that morning
It was springtime
I heard the linnet singing
its canary warbles
through the open window
of the bedroom.

Her hair was yellow as the corn
as it spread across the pillow.
God I loved her hair.
The final coffee we drank
across the breakfast table
savoring the fresh aromas.

The kiss as I left for work
Just a peck really.
She moved my lock of hair
back from my forehead
Like a mother to a son
leaving for school.

But I knew it was her sign that
I belonged to her.
I was hers nobody else's.
The door closed
with a final click.

How could I have known
I would not see her again?
At lunch I ate a sandwich
by my desk drank a water.

At that moment the tires
of the car would be screeching
as she tried to avoid
The moment that was predestined
The policewoman
said the driver of the truck
was intoxicated.

The kids were fine she had just
dropped them off at school.
A single thought hit me
Had I said I love you honey
as I rushed to work

Looking back If she
would have asked me then.
Before I left that that morning.

Are you happy love?
There in freshness
of the spring day
Living the busy life
of a modern day couple
Living paycheck to paycheck.

I would have said
Yes my love
Very happy
so very happy.