First thought in my mind

You are the first thought in my mind each day I rise.
You bring me peace of mind each time I look in your eyes.
You consume each an every single one of my thoughts.
You have helped my life have a whole new perspective 
Now honestly loving you is truly my only damn objective
I know that patient is a virtue especially after all you've been through
Only time can heal all as you stay tough and stand tall
But as you start to slowly distance yourself my heart slowly shatters 
My Aryan queen I truly don't think you get to me your all that matters.
So scared to lose you especially after all we have been through
I begin to get so emotional, lost and stuck in a deep daze.
Wishin we could stop living in our pasts an both have better days
Instead I fear your slowly trying to push me far away
Constantly getting stuck in my head day after fuck day
You bring me all these emotions that I've never experienced before 
An honestly I don't know how to even Handle them no more 
Now that you seen I've cried all I want to do is run an hide 
Afraid to let my feelings grow I try not letting them show 
Your love feels so right an I'm fuckin terrified I'm losing this fight
The thoughts of losing you got me feelin so lost an alone 
I'm sorry for all the pain an sorrow baby I'm trying to give. A better tomorrow 
That how I know my love is true an I only wanna be with you 
I love you with all my heart and am scared for it to be ripped apart