Fly High Angel RIP Chris 05/08/13

Child of mine i miss you everyday since you went away my life seems so dark and gray, i never imagined this life without you ... everyday i pray for you to return.. i try everything to get rid of this hurt but nothing works.. nothing means much without you here. you fought so hard until the day the Lord called you home .. may you be flying high sweet child of mine.. i love you forever and always.. lord i sit here and still wonder why this happened why did this child endure so much pain as such a young age.. trapped in those 4 walls of a hospital for a year battling for his life God it doesn't seem right,, the news of the cancer killed me on top of the kidney disease i don't know how we made it down the road of life as far as we did.. lord knows the pain will never go away n everyday i will always say i wish i could of saved him in some way,, to much sometimes  i cant help but cry each and everyday ...life is so unfair i just wish it wasnt this way.. i need my baby back all i wanted was to be his mother and now i cant i just dont think i can take any longer.. though i am becoming stronger it aint taking the void i feel in my heart away sadly i know it will always be there .. but i will not let him down I will continue this journey for you my child i will live for you i will not give in for i know you wouldnt want it any other way.. your memory lives and so do you here in this heart.. you are the reason its still beating.. for my love for you is endless.. fly high angel high in the sky for i willl always be your mother and you will always be my son