Footnote

Please believe when I say I am not humble

For I have never wanted more than to preach the sacrifices I've made

I want you to know how much it hurts and how I'll never be the same

...And then I want you to not care

I want to be a foot note in your life's narrative

Of a memory you have that brings you joy

A memory of love and passion

A reference number to a time and place where innocence was real and love was right

I want to be a footnote and nothing more

To serve as a reminder that you are everything I said you were

I hope you'll always know that and feel it from within

A footnote and nothing more

To serve as a reminder and perhaps a warning

I was not worthy, and you deserved better

A footnote that maybe exempts me from the severe guilt and shame I feel

I did not strive to be a footnote,  but life is unjust and God won't allow me to be more

I implore you to reduce me to the never intentioned, never sought foot note

Just place me neatly next to another inconsequential footnote

It's the biggest sacrifice for which I will never be able to seek reward or salutations

The sacrifice that makes no sense at all, yet all at once it does

I want to be a footnote

Groveling unbeknownst to you at your feet

So remember me kindly and forget me swiftly.