forward now or frozen still .

I am who i am
Because I finally believe
In myself
Fighting for survival
In this wicked game called life
Must i sacrifice
Take the best part of me
Place myself back into the box
I burnt two years ago
In winter
To keep my heart
From freezing to it's death
Must my soul
Be bound to the dust
That caused my shine a dull
Contagious sneeze
Upon the ground beneath
Falling leaves
Those trees bleed
They remember the pain
I scream at them
Begging them to make sense
It's to late for them
All i hear is rustling noises
My mind can't adjust
To the extremity
Of their inflictions
The colourful flowers below
Never leave their side
Protecting their fallen pride
I'm alone in the breeze
But it's not cold
when your already numb
From the insides out
Often my mind screams
In the night
I won't go back without
A fight
It's forward now or frozen still
But I'll fight within my mind
I always will .