Frozen

Days has passed where I have been deprived form your warm touch, Having the feeling of utter loneliness, You are within my reach, but you won’t allow me to get close. Pulling away every time I get close. You told me to stay away and it burns Sadness has filled me to the brim, burning with pain, deep within my rib cage Like a rag doll I am, tossed in the trash to be forever left alone and perish. Watching your life carry on without me,  leaving me behind. Forever I could wish everything I have done to make you hate me so much.  Wish I could take away the pain I have caused Knowing that I have broken your heart makes me hate myself even more. Knowing how easily I can take your love for granted.  Wanting more of what you can’t give has driven us apart. The burning desire to be close to you, has been passed on by you, You have placed me in a category, and no matter how hard I will ever try,  you will never remove me from it. I am forever to be seen in your eyes as shit. For that I apologise it has been all my fault. Seems you were right,  all I want is the in love feeling, but even as I have fallen back in love with you.  It would never be enough for you. You will always suspect the worst of me;  I was and will never be good enough. Now my heart has become as rock, protecting it with all that I have.  You, or anyone will ever be able to hurt me ever again