fructose malabsorbtion

I sit here and stare at it, thinking of the pain, all the gas's building up, the thoughts inside my brain, contemplating eating it, going through it all again, how am i to do this, my life is such a strain, my body mass is failing me, my clothes don't fit the same, now I've gone and lost the weight, i tried so hard to gain, why is it such a hard thing to do, just one piece or two, trouble is i know how it will be, im so hungry that two will turn to three, my intestines screaming at me, do not eat it, please , i beg you be kind, it will cripple you to your knees, all this food will surely built up, and down hill you will fall, its not that simple and its not that small at all, finding something i can eat, without falling ill, just is so expensive, i can't afford the bill, I've carefully decided to proceed with eating you, but for sure I'll be on the toilet soon, as it always follow's though , a life without fructose malabsorbtion, oh how i wish you knew, the pain from eating a simple thing , can destroy the inner you.