Get Better

I wanna get better, I wanna be okay,
But my focus just won't stay,
My mind drifts off to a random, empty place,
Or getting burned by stars in outer space.
I wanna feel more than just alive,
But I have no motivation to thrive,
I try for a minute, then slump to the ground,
Don't even have the energy to look around.
I wish I was okay for those I love,
But I don't care if I fall below or rise above,
I'm just empty, numb, and very lost,
What did I do, that this is the cost?
I try so many times to heal,
But nothing feels real,
Can't move, can't breathe, falling asleep,
I've fallen too deep.
All alone, wishing for the end,
Never trusting my friend,
Screams unheard and tears unseen,
Life, love, and all else is mean.

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Comments
As with all your recent postings, there's a yearning for more...for better...but you convey, with great feeling, the tremendous effort which that can take quite a lot of the time.
The straining against your own demons is aptly mirrored in the straining forward of the meter; even though it can't seem to break free of the lines. In this regard, the internal struggle is beautifully realised; it's clear that the real barriers are within, rather than without.
The imagery is perfect as well.
Lovely!
J xxxxxxxxxx
keep writing and it'll get better... that brought me back to a time when I was lost. I knew I had brilliance in me but couldn't reach it. the world held me down I thought; now I realize that it isn't true, no matter what you're going through... just know that there are many people who care. great piece because it says you want to change for the better; therefore you have it in you to change the world for the better. If I can overcome social injustice anyone can... believe in yourself, you can do it!