Goodnight

I'll have another and one more,
Close the curtains lock the door,
This is going to be an all nighter,
I've got my vodka, cigarettes and a lighter,
Drinking until my eyes stay shut,
I'm a mangy stray an unwanted mut,
Drink until the pain grows numb,
Knees hurt pins and needles in bum,
Just take it shot by shot,
One bottle down let's drink the lot,
Pack of pills by my side,
Now that's a fucking dangerous ride,
I'm tempted, I want too,
Because then I will stop longing you,
But it's not just you,
So much else has happened,
My life's been crushed,
My confidence flattened,
I literally can't take whatever's to come,
And what I do next May hurt some,
But it's my choice and not one made in a flash,
Time to proceed gotta go, gotta dash