Happily ever after

Been there, done that
I promised myself 
I would never go back.

The lie about happily ever after 
the crushed feeling inside 
at least I didn’t go back.

I want to escape 
I want to hide
just erase everything till now.

I don’t give shit for the memories 
I couldn’t care less for the pain
just make it go away.

I feel no relief.
No tear of joy.
I don’t want to be with him forever…
But I don’t want to be alone…