Hardly holding on

I'm sad and nothing helps
Can't you see 
Nothing can fix me
Fuck all this insanity
Sticking impurities inside my veins
My pains manifest into migraines
My shame is a pest
Unsure if my worst may be my best
Your fucking ears would fall from your head if you heard me completely confess
I hardly have a heart in my chest
Cursed and blessed in the same breath
Sober and high in the same sniff
Truth and lies spit from my quivering lips
Devil and God
One kiss