He Always Looks So Sad

He always looks so sad, so disconnected and mad! 
His deep brown eyes are so striking the break my heart like lightning! 
I just can't breathe, I am betrothed to someone else.
There's no one that can help me.
There's no where to go to.
I don't not know but then again I do,
I just need to know you're happy and you will never know I love you.
I never thought I could love like this.
I've never felt these insane feelings for someone else.
It makes me sad, disconnected and mad.
It is so intense that I don't want to live this life if I can't live it with you.
But I also know I made I a promise to whom I am betrothed to.
This is not fair, it is the saddest thing I have ever felt.
I'm so sad, disconnected and mad at this hand that I have been dealt!