Hello me...
So,
Here it goes...
I've became somebody I don't know, with feelings of highs and feelings of low
A continuous battle of blow after blow
I try to shelter myself with the walls I build, but them quickly come and go
I create a second body who is so far from reality
I've became a slave to his insanity and forgot about my obesity
I'm drowning in a watery grave and my weight is the stone
I torture myself and this is my self harm beautifully done
Do I have a personality disorder, I do once in a while ponder
People see cracks in my life everywhere I loosely wander
My enormous heavy thoughts of ending life's wonder
But then again I wallow in self pity just to feel sombre
I second guess what people say just to protect my own pain
I suppress what I want to say just to stay in human nature's game
I'm lost to the people I love because I don't show them my face
I walk around in different shadows of my haunted day to day
So,
Here I am...
The extraordinary
At being ordinary
My face shows a million stories
My lines are life of happiness and glory
But my mind tells me I'm broken and deplorable
Fragile
Intense
Lonely
Depressed
I write
I fight
I dream
I scream
I'm vile
I'm mine
I'll find
I'll hide
I'm Wayne Stubbs, do you know me?
Hello
It's me
Hello
It's you
Hello me...
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Dear Poet Brother WAYNE!!
This is one of the most powerfully honest pieces I've read on Cosmo!!......this had to feel good to write....even if it was through your tears......self awareness makes a man stronger not weaker......and this is such big leap in the right direction......I cannot say enough how magnificent this write is......suffice it to say, i'm proud to know you dear poet brother!......the formatting, especially the last of it, is extremely impressive!......PINNED! for the obvious!!......bravo!......LOVE & ROCKETS!......T xo ?☀✴♥♥???
Wow! Thanks very much Tony, I can't believe the reception I've getting from this, it's crazy! This is the most honest piece I've wrote and so to put it out there I definitely feel like I'm going in the right direction, I'm stunned by your fantastic review of it, I can't thank you enough my poet friend! ????
Oh my dear Wayne...I dont need to reach down too far into myself to know how you are feeling..you however are brave enough to bring it all out and express it without any frill and bows but in the stark way that reality really exists. You seem to have self doubt and self image demons to fight...you are not alone there hun..and it IS a fight I know! but you have started a comeback by gathering your thoughts and deepest emotions and generating this heartfelt piece of work representing how you see yourself -but by doing this you have also given us an insight into a part of you you might not be seeing so well....you have a wonderful warmth and are a gentle,caring father- all marvellous qualities and whilst you are encountering some challenging issues - you have the courage within you to face those challenges. Thank you for writing with such integrity and giving many of us much to think about- and keep moving forward..you are on the right track my friend. xxx ♥
Lodigiana
Wow! Thank you so much Lodigiana, I can't thank you enough, In writing this has given me a sense of belief in the fact that there is people always willing to listen/read, and that is always a lovely to know, again thank you so much ? x
Very powerful Wayne and clearly very personal.
Its not easy to write such things, but remember we all feel like this in different shapes and forms. You are never alone.
Very true Keith, I think in certain times we all have struggles in our mind we have to battle, thank you ???
Great poem Wayne. Very personal and honest. That's the thing about writing poems I like the most. To be able to say whatever is on your mind. You'll have to forgive my reviews as I'm not a very good reveiewer.
If I had to suggest a poem of mine to check out it would probably be False Idols. You seem like a nice person, so I hope I don't offend you in anyway with all of the other topics I write about - Syd
Haha, fantastic thanks very much, I don't mind to be offended, i find it challenging, especially in these modern times when some people don't accept it's ok to be offended, it's just a label to be offended, this is a process of how we get to know people and define the people who they are, to be offended i take as a challenge Syd, much appreciated for your comments, I will check your poem out now, the more topics we write about the better, they stimulate of how we think ?
I couldn't agree more mate. Have fun ?
- Syd
This is an amazing write. I love it x
I thought you might of liked this one, thank you ??