Help me

I go everyday with the fear of breaking down in front of them

They keep hurting me more and more as much as they can

I want to be left alone for once or even more than that

They will not stop though and i cant stop them either

I want to hide alot now and hide from all the pain

they will find me and try to hurt me even more

I just want to disappear for good from them

they will still laugh at the thought of me

I want to go back home but i cant now

they just wont stop take me away 

I think ill go cry in a pillow

they will find me still

I just wanna fade

they wont stop

I beg you

please