her life & mine.

When i was just sixteen years young,
My whole life turned upside down,
Everything I'd imagined ,
Came crashing down,
I fell very ill ,
Nothing else mattered,
but finding the reason,
for the pain i was in,
Months went by,
Test after test,
Becoming so tired,
Needing a rest,
A laparoscopy,
The gynaecologist,
The best,
Apparently my ovaries,
Were in extreme direst ,
32 cystic matters upon the left,
28 cystic matters upon the right,
YOU CAN'T Have CHILDREN,
IF YOU DO YOU'LL have to FIGHT,
I lay in bed that night a fragile young girl,
My dreams within my hands,
Screaming on the inside trying to understand,
Why me,
How could it be,
In a world i thought to be beautiful,
Had left me unfulfilled,
My dreams of having babies,
GONE,
ruining my life before it begun,
I didn't believe it,
I wanted to prove him wrong,
I went on with life,
The thoughts always there,
Pain management,
Medical care,
Until the age of 18 when i contracted cmv a liver disease,
From a previous tonsillectomy,
Where upon me someone sneezed,
Well so they say,
An explanation i had to take,
No other theory,
Conclusion make,
With doctors appointments and itching skin,
Trying not to destroy the skin i was in,
HE HEED ME WARNING,
DO NOT GET PREGNANT HE SAID,
side effects may cause deception,
Upon the babies growth,
Blind, limbless, deformedly grow,
Malformation, or dead.
I FELL PREGNANT,
Within this illness,
But its was the best news I'd ever heard my little baby growing inside of me,
My world now rebuilt like building a bridge,
I wanted to walk across,
THE DOCTOR DISAPPOINTED,
CROSS,
my baby daddy in shock,
Wanting me to abort it,
Just like throwing a rock into the watery tears the fell,
How could i breath,
I was on my very knees begging god, help me please,
From the moment i knew,
That my baby was there,
I promised to love,
honor and care,
That no matter what,
id always be there,
Id raise you alone,
If he wouldn't be there,
WITHOUT THE DOCTORS SUPPORT, OR PARTNERS APPRECIATION,
i chose not to abort,
She was my salvation,
A god send creation,
I'd love her through her gestation,
I longed to meet her,
To touch her face,
This tiny girl,
who came from grace,
THE PREGNANCY, TEST AFTER TEST,
A near early birth,
Premature labour,
Had me laid up on a drip,
My heart racing upon adrenaline,
Watching the clock upon every movement she made,
SO I PRAYED THAT NIGHT,
to god, asking him to help,
After 24 hours she had stopped,
We enjoyed our time together again,
Three weeks later at 36 weeks and 2days,
Kindrah Elizabeth was born,
On the 29th day ,
Month for September,
Year 2002,
That year changed my life forever,
This perfect little girl was here,
Was mine to love,
Such an angel from above,
Little nose,
Angelic toes,
Perfections rare red rose,
Everyday the loving feeling grows,
She changed my life,
Everyone knows,
she Bought me love,
my little princess ,
My pride and joy,
My motherhood,
My lifetime employ.