Him

your mother gave you this life 
whether or not she has stuck with you your entire life
may she always be your mother 
but, with your precious and valuable life 
you were given pain along with it 
the kind of pain you feel when you break into millions of pieces
the kind of pain you feel when someone you thought cared about you the most, used the exact words “I don’t care about you”
your mother took nine months to form your heart 
you let him destroy it in nine seconds 
. . . nine seconds
that’s all it takes
that is all it will ever take to take you down  
after the hurting, after the breaking, after the healing 
You’re cold now 
You were once burning with warmth
Had he left 
You’d still be burning you start to question, was he worth it?
no, you thought 
no one should have this type of power over you
you are the most powerful 
you can control what you do and what happens in your own little world 
it is your world 
you repeated to yourself so angrily 
“It is my own little world. I control myself” 
so, here you are my love, making gold out of it 
marking your place despite it all
im glad you realized you were better than that