hmmm.. thought the skeptic

This feeling of something beneath it all
Kinda leaves our future to call
Your bluff or mine?
I felt it. . Until the end of time.
But, when those vibrations seem benign
It's a fucked up rhythm without rhyme
Chill as they come until the resist is done
Just awkward enough to shun
Assume that it's with a defeated gun
Face to face, the bullet would have won
But the angles are all wrong
Singing the most desperate song
Eagerly awaiting the time for tongue and to hit the free bong
Teeth grin tease with sweet nothings camoflaouge and taunt
Nothing to incriminate the 'unaware' daunt
Awaiting the reactions sincerely stare. .
Expecting more than just the dairy air. .
Either intrigued by assumption as fair. .
Or~ 'only responses' were ripped from the tear
Who knows the truth of our share. . . .
Who to blame without direct demeans demanding
Like we had the right to play such a hand
Finesse with the passive decor
But underneath lies the medaphor
Rushing beyond the egotistic shore
Kinda laughing at the obvious whore. . Just a swinging door. .
As they come and go, so does the glam of the show.
As the arrogance danced in its halarious shrine.
The masks faded without alerting the mind. .
Just repeating the grind.
Some sort of crime we blame the 'devine'. .
1 percent; the royal masters only need to repent
Either they plotted and schemed not to fall
Or just play the part standing obscenely tall
None the less-no one interjects ignorance is best. . As the ploy is left to rest it consuming. . inhabiting my chest.
energy that circles the word for word. . Reciting the tones of mocking birds. . But the reality hangs thick. . My big balls somehow not as quick. . As jealousy and sadness revel and trick
When they timely present the bisquick. .
'Perfection made easy' unless your body knows that its sleazy and ggggreeeeeeaaaazzzyyyy. . Oh and of course its super fucking EAZY~
Branded as the best you can buy. .
Only cheap.99. .
From cow boy boots to a suit and tie..
And the Karen's homade white little lie
The REALity of the flaws. . in those fake plastic claws
Distracted us with irresistible innocence above law. .
Each minute to pass. . Reveals true colors of trespass. .
For so long stuck at an impass. . Leaving the damsel in distress. .
as my confusion grew with age. . Time ticks away every page. . Mentally locked in a unprovable cage. . Denying the placidity I gave.
It comes down to if it is right or not. Black and white bars my heart gets caught. Weakly avoiding the numbing shot. . Shot in the arm or liquid hot? Either way brains continue to rot. Sad. . Such an amazing experience. . Living reality inside a different conscious. Still ours just finding the limits. Consuming an illegal and unacceptable substance. Many are socially welcome. But some are seemly selfish rebellion scum. Despite different monks/buddhas dabbled some. It's a forbidden government made mechanism of demise. shock and aww what a surprise. All those destructive lies. . opened up my real eyes. . but hope was naiive i now realize.