Holding On

I’ll never forget that saddest night; I laid you in your bed;

I held you in in my arms a while, then I kissed your little head!

You’d been ill for just a few days; I thought you needed sleep;

I never dreamt in two hours I would find you, with your soul, the Lord in keep!

I know you tried to reach me, for I found you on the floor;

Since that night, I can’t forgive myself, for not holding on some more!

But I had no idea you were leaving, or I’d have never left your side;

And I could have held you for your final breath, as you started Heavens ride!

I think of this so often; I curse myself each day;

How could I have been so unaware, that soon, you’d go away!

I wish that I could go back, and change your saddened end;

Then in my arms I would have held you, and asked angels the Lord send!

The guilt all day consumes me, castigations in the night;

There’s nothing I can say or do, to make it ever right!

Forgiveness is out of question, it’s beyond the far beyond;

That when one’s precious soulmate leaves them, they should be holding on!