Hopeless breath of air

Thinking
Rehearsing 
Everything in my head 
Like a broken record
I’m trap in my mind
Mouth sewed shut 
Waiting to burst open with words When I finally do
Nothing comes out 
But hopeless breath of air !
My mind goes blank 
And the words disappear 
Me regretting not saying anything 
Because I know that the monster will reappear 
Torturing me with no seconds to spear
Thinking 
Rehearsing
Everything in my head
I’m trap in my mind
Mouth sewed shut
Waiting to burst open with words
When I finally do 
Nothing comes out 
But a cold weary hopeless breath of air