How Can I Forget You

How can I forget you, especially this way
You walked away, you turned your back on us
You didn't even leave a note, not a word
You didn't even try to explain
So how can I forget you
When I have no answers to explain this to myself......

I've looked into our future, time and time again
And in every one of my imaginings
You were there, draped in splendor
It's always been that way, always
So how can I forget you
When you're a part of everything I am

So now I find myself alone and broken
And I just don't understand why I can't heal myself
I've tried hating you, throwing things at your image
I've thrown our scrapbook to the wolves
Watched them rip it apart, and still
You just won't go away, let me be
Please, it's breaking my heart,
And disgust is seeping into my soul

So how can I forget you
I ask myself each and every day
And I never have the answers, maybe you'll call today
Maybe it was my job, or maybe the clothes I wear
Or maybe it was the fact that I didn't seem to care
I tried so hard to tell you, but I was always so afraid
That it would end like this, and so I only prayed
I never said the words out loud
I'd like to try them out today.....

I love you so much it hurts
I need you so much I lie
I want you so much, I pretend I don't
I hate you so much, for loving you so much
I worry so much, I'm jealously insane
So tell me please,
How, can I forget you......

Tony Taylor (Chicago)