How Can You Say Such Words?

"You are my life."
Don't say such a thing when you don't mean it.
"I don't know what I would do without you."
I don't want those words coming out of your mouth.
"I love you."
Those words disgust me.
How can you say such words?
You only say such words as you only see how pretty I am.
You don't care who I really am.
You don't know what I am capable of doing.

I know what you are capable of doing.
I know you better than you think you do.
I know that you wouldn't hurt a hair on my body.
I know that you won't hurt me because deep down on the inside,
You love me for who I am.

No.
I don't love you at all.
I can't believe you as you have only abused me before.
You never said sorry for all the things you did to me.
You never thought of being nice in the slightest,
Expect for the one time you gave me flowers for my birthday.
I don't trust you as everything that comes out of your mouth is a big fat lie.
A lie that will only break me,
Make me suffer,
Make me feel pain when I don't want,
Make me feel like I can never trust to love someone again.
How could I love you when you did such horrible deeds to me?

You do love me.
You can't deny the fact that you are drawn to me,
Like a bee that is drawn to honey.
You can't push me away
As you will only feel guilty in the end.
Stop saying all these lies that keep coming out of those lips.
Those rosy red lips I have claimed to be mine so many times.
How can you deny that you don't love me...
When you tremble beneath my hands,
My body,
My lips.
Is it really that impossible to tell me to go away?
To tell me that you don't want me anymore?
To tell me that I am a jerk?

Yes.
I can say those words as clear as day.
I am not yours anymore.
I never was once I saw you cheating on me.
Yes, I did see you with that other person.
Now you can't deny the fact that you have been with others.
How can you expect me to trust you?
I don't trust you at all.
You are not human at all.
Those grey eyes of yours are only filled with darkness,
Emotionless,
Brokenness.
Those eyes that have felt more pain than I have felt.
If you don't want to cause people pain,
Why are you the one who is causing me pain right now?

You are right.
I have felt more pain and rejections then you have.
I know that I should have never pushed my pain on you but I didn't know what I was doing till I saw you hurt.
Till I saw you standing out on a corner in the pouring rain,
Letting your hair get drenched and tears fall down your flushed cheeks.
Till I saw all the pain in your eyes every time you looked at me.
Till I saw the very pain I felt in your eyes.
I can't believe what a fool I was to push the pain on you,
A person that I care deeply for.
I guess that I was so lost in my pain that I didn't see how much I was hurting you till now.
Can you ever find it in your heart to forgive me?

You make me laugh.
I am never going to forgive you.
I don't want you to keep pushing all your pain on me.
I don't want it.
You can keep it.
Keep it till you finally realize that there is someone out there to help you through your pain.
I am not the one who will be able to do it.
I am not the one who will be able to make you happy.
I am not the one who you want to have a happy life with.
Why?
You have hurt me so many times that I can't seem to forgive you.
You might be wondering what happened to the kind,
Gentle,
Sweet,
Carefree person went.
I am right here in front of you.
I haven't changed since the first day you met me.
The only thing that has changed is the fact that I can't trust you anymore.
Say what you want to me but I won't ever be able to forgive you.

No more cheesy things from you.
I don't want to feel special with you anymore.
"You are my life."
Don't say such a thing when you don't mean it.
"I don't know what I would do without you."
I don't want those words coming out of your mouth.
"I love you."
Those words disgust me.
How can you say such words?